alright, say hi to your slave. imagine this person.. standing there. his primary function is to eat your problems and worries.. and clean up all that shit, just to ensure that everything works fine every saturday. alright imagine that person is me.

now u realise why when wilbeng said i was TL.. i wasn't smiling nor was i laughing.. then there was this j-wei who went like.. 'dun try give that dao look.. i know you're happy inside.' honestly, being TL nothing much to be happy or joyous about. infact its just the beginning of a sad journey.. haha, and daryl went like, directing his words to the air, ' u sure u chose the right person?' oh well, too bad daryl, u just happen to belong to the loser community. too bad you were born with that face. too bad u ain't got internet connection. which also means you can't see this.

u knoe what makes him such a big fucker? he's a loser.. lifeless idiot. okay that doesn't make him a fucker yet.. but when he has such a lousy background and goes around mocking every single thing u've got, putting u down in everything u do, making ur life so freaking difficult, dictating on every single thing, and doing all of this when he's such a freaking loser in life, wifeless, lifeless. it makes u just want to slap him. well i dun have to name him. anione who knoes him, knoes who i'm talking abt.

argh.. now i'm stretched for ideas on where to go for the cycling ex.. todae was kinda screwed up. cycled all the way to school, had plc with a bunch of ppl who weren't serious at all. dragged on for like until 12.. no time to play cards or carrom.. after which we had to carry out our recce for the cycling ex.. got the bikes for wQ and jwei and took the blardie siglap park connector.. cycle happy happy all the way until reached PIE.. nabei there no overhead bridge.. DeadEnd. freaking no choice have to turn back.. which totally sucks. aniwae.. the siglap park connector was also rather dangerous.. if it were to be for the cycling ex.

reached back ecp then clouds started to gather. on the way down the overhead bridge to ecp.. got 1 lian and 2 bengs.. stupid idiots, cb with us.. dunno what's their freakin problem. aniwae.. cycle cyle.. then as expected started to rain. lalala.. had to return the bikes.. but i had to cycle all the way back to pasir ris in the rain.. damn cold.. cause my bag to get wet.. actually waterproof..

alright.. so the bottom line is that i dun have a route for the blardie cycle ex. cursed park connectors can never be trusted again.. until maybe 10 years later when nParks decide to complete their project. i can either just screw the cycling ex. and put in place some other cheap activity.. or use the route to sheares bridge proposed by javier.. if so i still have to conduct another recce.. which totally sucks..

still have to gather information for my first class hike report.. seriously dunwan to redo.. more changes to the end year camp.. which dexter predicts would be a total screw up.. which i'm starting to agree.. which is really bad.. since i'm the one running it.

sudddenly, i realised what going into sec4 would mean. realised what it means to be at the end of secondary school life - having to face the Os. it would be less that a year from now to the first paper. and current status of preparation is NIL.

would really like to at least go through the years work.. probably finish the damned TYS for the sec3 syllabus. but activities and duties fill this holiday making it rather impossible to start the revision. homework had not even started, books not collected.

well, we just have to make the best of it. while others break and shirk responsibilty.

found this rather interesting while reading Newsweek, an edition some months ago.. talking about the formation of the Japanes maritime self defence force.. the 4th most powerful sea-based force in the world - talk about their japanese constitution established to disallow the formation of a japanese armed force after the bloody World War 2..

aniwae so those japanese elite men and women have to before lights out to ponder over the 5 reflections.. receited in ancient japanese.

" Hast thou not gone against sincerity?
Hast thou not felt ashamed of thy words and deeds?
Hast thou not lacked vigor?
Hast thou exerted all possible efforts?
Hast thou not become slothful?"

interestingly the elite chosen 1 out of 40 top university graduates have to at the beginning visit a shrine dedicated to military contributions of past Wars. the musuem even appraises the japanese who volunteered for the 77-man suicide mission.. talk about propaganda.. making the 20 odd year old feel like they 'belong to that tradition' and it being ' something i have to carry on'. Both quoting 2 interviewees.

ok its been long.. since i last blogged.. been really too busy.. been slping at like 2-3 and waking at 7... crap siah scouts is like a 13hr affair - from 7am to 8pm.. stupid interview.

ok i think i'm just use this post to bitch.. crap.. yes the troop camp planning, the lame patrol outing, and the stupid lectures..

haha today's games was fun.. see daryl get raped by 4 other ppl.. whahaha.. stupid shit.. lose to me 2 of 2 rounds in 1v1 match. freaking rebellious fuck.. and i'm supposed to make up with that fella to be elligeble for TL.. i mean who gives a shit.

shit didn't intent this to be vulgar.. apologies. will post one of my more intelligible posts some other time..

i really do not want to blog that much on scouts.. its just not worth it. its not worth getting angry over lifeless beings. who spend their fucking time coming down for scout meetings. as far as i'm concerned they are the most lifeless bastards i've ever known. okay this really doesn't include every single one of them.. but it emcompasses a great number of them. okay maybe they're coming back so that they can come back and screw that wild boar without fear of being screwed.

honestly, i feel anyone who ever considers joining ventures after life in arrow is utterly spastic. he probably have some mental fuck up or something. i dun mind coming back once in a while to screw that fat ass' ass for the fun of it. but devoting anything more than 4yrs to scouts is idiocy, foolhardy - brave but stupid; real stupid. i give fullest support to anyone who considers quiting, it might just be the best decision of their lifetime.

i'm stuck, i am. in scouts. leave me here to die. the rest of u.. run while u still aren't rooted down.

2 words: Lifeless Swine. Peace Out

i'm not aching but drained.. i think the aches will come tmr. dammit its like only 20km.. and some bball and i'm bushed. wonder if i'm up to the real expedition, afraid i might just like fall off and die half way. and my mates have to carry me and my bike back home, haha maybe they'll just ditch me thinkin' its way too troublesome.

was stuck in school for a few hours cause of the rain. and finally we set off. its started off with a light drizzle from siglap and bedok.. but once we reached tampinese it freaking poured like hell. and its not fun to cycle in the rain at high speeds.. the pelting rain in addition to the cyclist's velocity, equates to infliction of pain. By the time we rode into pasir ris it was went back to a drizzle - or rather we sort of rode away from the grey clouds, we were already more or less drenched, which really sucked. .

came home, had to spray down the bike - not fun. but cycling on a whole still is fun.

have u heard,'' we were tired but happy' haha rofl.. some P school compo cliche..

why am i always bothered with wilbeng.. or rather why is no one bothered.. no one seems to give a shit. now wilbeng's arrowing me like free.. and i'm becoming a 100% slave.. dammit i can't stand it.. but there's little i can do. Guess its part and parcel of being in arrow.

going to cycle to school with shu zi tmr.. to carry out my initiative to have a make up for advanced lectures, how intelligently stupid i am - can't help dun wanna be screwed by Kai Urn. cycling is just so fun.. u never know how far u can go..

man, wished i could just have time to sit down and have a good read... so many things i want to read. guess i have 2 mths..

watched forrest gump the other day. 'Life is like a box of chocolates.. u nv knoe what u gonna get'. lame analogy but how true..

i'm freaking pissed with scouts now.. especially when it becomes no fun in sec3, when he starts to breathe down your neck. email sucks.. i should check my mail less often, then won't have to read what the swine wants his minions to do for him.

it was fun in sec1 and sec2.. but when you're sec3 you slowly start to hate it.. and realise all the hardwork that seniors do for us to enjoy in the earlier years. their threats to knock us down and screw around with us, is just a means of relieving their frustration passed down by the pig.

ok i guess i better stop right here to prevent myself from leaking out the ugly reality. actually, i've already written enough to have my ass fired, if any AL stumbles upon this site...