i can't help but being afraid that i'll not be able to get into vj at the end of the day. it frightens me to think that there's a possibility that i'll just flop my O's and end up in any other jc. its equally worries me that i'll get stunned by the geog and english papers, and screw them up.. causing me not being able to make the mark for vJ

i pray that the Lord will carry these burdens for me... but i myself seriously needs some shaping up. i'm certainly mentally not ready for any examinations. the start of the year has been slow for me.. my hw not even done, chinese books not read. i've lost the drive - at the most critical year. This can't be happening.. i need to curb this laziness.. i pray that the Lord will instill in me the diligence, determination and drive to see through this year...

btw actually i've promised God that i'll give a fifth of my edusave award - if i get it, which i did, to church. i figured, i had better put this somewhere, to ensure i don't forget my commitment.