sometimes i really ask myself why do i have to always drag myself early in the morning to scouts.. why do i have to come every single week even though i feel physically and mentally tired after a week of school, with so many activities. honestly, why do i actually bother coming down at 7.30 every morning.. well, its commitment.. i'm the tl.. if i dun have it, who would? responsibility isn't alwaes fun, actually i nv experienced fun with it.. coming to scouts is a commitment.. a responsibility i have to fulfill. of coz i do have fun there, but meetings are rather objective..

after scouts.. i rushed home, got changed and left for cell. last XS meeting as splinter cell, and probably the last splinter cell meeting. i honestly feel its too early for splinter cell, we've just entered the XS and just started with splinter cell, and now we're splitting up. its really sad, i'm gonna miss the lot of them.. though we'll still get to see each other on sundays, we won't get to meet up so often. i really dread the coming of the big bang, where the cells will break, and be reformed, for the growth of the XS. but i guess its good, we get to know more people from different age groups, widen our friendship scope =) 19th feb - big bang.

i'm kinda pissed that victoria isn't gonna give us a holiday this friday. why make us go back to school, what a mood spoiler.. while other schools like rg and acs(i) get to have the day to themselves.. the more i think abt it, the more i detest apc..