u know the feeling where when you are in it, u hate it like hell? okay not really like hell, but dreaded it? but after the entire experience, u really cherish them? really feel stupid for actually once feeling regretful abt going into it.. now that i really appreciate all those times, as i flip through the photographs, i really am grateful to all those leaders that make it possible. they are really a knowledgeable bunch, of whom i would like to call professionals in what they do. as the images form in my mind, i think back in reminiscence. certain memories make me feel really nostalgic, harbouring in me the desire to return once more to that moment; to feel that experience once more. even pictures that caused me to burn with hate then, now puts a silent smile on my lips. thank you all, adult leaders, everyone of you; down to the very last - even those who don't know me.

yes, i'm referring to my cca, scouts. though the younger generation will deem scouts to be yesteryear, and the growing ncc's and npcc as 'in', we are a unique bunch not just a hybrid of the army or police. yes, the young public might snigger at the uniform behind their fold of magazines, but that's the generation we have in singapore - the world for that matter. Both a shame and pity. but this, i shan't touch on at present.

u might ask, what made me write this. the reason, is a regretful one. that i had to see the value of scouting though such a way. if i hadn't had needed help, would i still be thinking i would have been better off joining a cultural group or another uniformed group? maybe. but yes, i want to thank a number of ppl who have helped me on planning and fixing up ideas for some activities i have to carry out. Kai urn, who has to be first on the list, wei keong, zhihan, javier, greg. their professionalism, expertise, resources, opinions, ideas, suggestions and knowledge is definitely sought after. and i appreciate that of them - for readily offering me these. thank you, really.