the physics paper couldn't have been worse.. threw every victorian off their feet, when everyone was beginning to think the mid-years was not going to be that bad after all. but nooo, the physics paper had to be such a bitch.

a math and geog tmr.. ain't going to suppose it'll be any easier. lacking practice, that should have been done way before now. this is probably what i really need - a 'F' staring at me, before i start getting frantic and get down to serious work.

sigh. human nature, nv fails to disappoint. being contented is a choice. one can choose to be satisfied, or remain frustrated. just that circumstances would sometimes sway this personal choice, to be angry or otherwise. but that doesn't mean, it isn't still a personal decision. sometimes this circumstance seem so darn stupid at the end of the of it all, that if u look back at how u had reacted and all, you would feel a great deal more of an idiot.

i mean really, if u can't find a shirt, search for it for 5 minutes. if still unsuccessful, wear sth else. it is not worth getting pissed all over because of it, upsetting those ard in the process. guess the narrow childish part of us, nv fails to re-surface every once in awhile.

been in a really cranky mood lately, john can assure u i've gone mad that sat night. i think the Os starting to get to me.. dun expect it to get any better as it draws even closer. so ppl ard me, bear with it another 5 mths or so.. hopefully by then, the serious me will be back.

made notes for 7+ hrs today, and i can't really rmb what i did.. hope for the best tmr? haha. as like always, i will be studying as the exams go by. being like every other victorian, famous for last minute work, that nv actually does any good. but oh well..

wouldn't it be nice if we were older.. then we wouldn't have to wait so long..

the last straw. i'm nv going back again.. until after the mid years. the xs room is a bad place to study, i tell u. home's still the best. and my dad's plain genius. he solved the qn jon tang and i got stuck all afternoon.

the link between the 2 equations was so darn chim la.. like wth, impossibly difficult. first take x=y/2 then multiply everything by 8. then take y=1/x again.. then slowly substitute roots of the 1st eqn, manipulate in that order, to find the roots of the 2nd eqn. i really do not know how he even thought of that, i mean really.

but seriously, i think i'm getting stupid. everythings getting rusty, which is putting me in a panic, when i think that the O's are so darn near..

physics practical was not that bad..
tmr shall try studying in church again, after bio practicals. hopefully there would be lesser ppl :)

went to study at the xs room today. with erm.. i great lot of ppl. john, jean, mich, elisa, linette, charmaine, natalie, jon tang and some other sec3s. squeezed on 2 little rectangular tables.. super crammed. not exactly the sort of environment u would call 'condusive', but oh well. landed up having qn after qn thrown at me, for me to solve. thank goodness got raymond and jon tang to teach me as well as lighten the load. next time should get cheryl there so everything will be arrowed to her, and i shall just curl up at some corner and do my work, whahah. i kinda think i taught more qns than i actually did for myself. but also good la, revise sec3 work - realised i'm super rusty at them. so embarrassing to think that the top in the top class gets stunned at a physics question that goes like, ''suggest a reason for the presence/absence of friction''

the sec3s like super funny.. they ask for help on every other question, almost la. like 3 out of 5. makes me wonder how they do their work at home, where they have no one to teach them. then again.. it might be all a conspiracy - like what mich says. the 3 penguins conspiring to get the clueless sec4s + JC1s + raymond, to do their hol hw for them. hmmm

okay, pls forgive, i'm feeling really random and stupid. blogging when i have physics pract tmr. and have yet to revise for it.

been telling ppl not to scratch their sand fly bites.. or they'll develop pus and more spots will appear all over. which will slowly develop into dark purple blisters. but now, i'm starting to feel the itch, and trying my best to forget it entirely. i half suspect its the caffeine that i took an hour or so ago. i dunno if caffeine and itch have any link, but oh well, that could be the only reason why suddenly i'm feeling itchy from my feet up.

hmm so tip #173: avoid consumption of caffeine, to prevent agitation of sand fly bites. yup

camp's over.. though it was only a night, i really hope the 20 odd campers that went for it, took back something at the end of the 24hr outdoor experience. whatever it might have been.. i was glad that dennis and zhihan could make it, and hopefully had a great time knowing new ppl and also showing off their l33tness.

hmm feedback seems to suggest that it wasn't tough enough, or xstreme enough. lol, that's a good sign, it means these ppl really are garung enough to accept tough treatment - something that i feel is really weird.. i mean how many ppl would complain that we didn't seem fierce enough or actually torture anyone.

well, for me at least, i perceived the theme xstreme to be a camp that is different. an eye opener. something that participants would be doing for the first time, that they have nv experienced. we weren't actually discounting their ability to accept tough treatment, instead we (or at least, I) felt that we wanted to give experience they could nv buy.

on top of everything, i have to thank God for being so gracious, and allowing everything to flow smoothly. cos when we the advance party got to noordin beach, the sky was getting kinda grey. at ard 3+ it started to drizzle.. and then just like 20mins b4 the first team arrived.. it stopped totally. and it nv rained for the rest of the camp, even thru' the night games. really, He works in wondrous ways. the teams finished the night games really quick.. and we were already heading towards the jetty when it was still dark. and only then, as we were walking back.. did the rain really come down (before that was a light drizzle). and even that, the rain only persisted for probably 40mins.. and everyone made it smoothly back to mainland.. in the cool morning :)

THANK GOD!

just came back from a short bike exploration.. to golden mile food centre in beach road.. and back to pasir ris again. not bad la, 4 hrs there and back. went with prof. good thing i changed new tubings.. so it was quite a smooth ride and wasn't that tiring.

alright the camp preparation and planning has yet to be completed.. and the camp is this friday.. seriously, these stuff could have been finished a week ago.. if everyone has enough urgency.. oh well.. we have God, so that's all that matters right? :D

just watched butterfly effect. i think the script writer for the show is damn good la.. to think out a story like this, really. the ending was awesome.. how he sacrificed himself to end all that mess.