moderation was gay. super gay. i just needed 2 marks la, just moderate 2 marks mah. what's the point of moderating so much, its like giving ppl false hope.

hmm i got 6 before moderation, so i didn't really benefit from all that moderation.

but alot of undeserving ppl are going to be able to make it to vj for the first 3 mths. however, of cos there is this group of ppl who are deserving but somehow because of circumstances didn't make the criteria, and moderation helped them that little bit they needed.

hah. i would really be flamed for writing this.

realised my average isn't really ideal, cos of my hcl (54.5), pulled down the average from 81 to 77. i think david poh got 90+%, which can be described in one word: GAY.

this guy's really an exception, he just gets thrown out of the bell curve.

thank God, really. without Him, i wouldn't have been able to actually discipline myself to get down to studying. thanks for all the prayers, all of you, thank you. to my cell, tan sisters, church mates. i'm happy.

i've got 6 pts. cos they are rounding up my 74.4% for english and bio.

i'm still satisfied. i'm happy that at least now i have a glimmer of hope of getting into vj science. hope competition won't be that stiff.

but i'll have to get my head back on concentrating on the O's, and not fall into complacency. i need to work harder! and God will give me the determination and mental drive that is sufficient.

on a down side, i regret swearing so much today. and even more so because i sweared for little rhyme of reason, mainly because it was really intense today, but ya, that's an excuse. i regret so many things; little wonder when will i actually attempt to avoid having to feel that way.

tmr's dday. fighting the urge to worry. trying to stay away from what is completely 'human', and 'normal' in our society's context. what the world deems to be correct, is correct from a perspective that people has come to a consensus to be so. truth is, humanly correct, isn't God's idea of what's right. for his word writes, do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

that through the renewing of our own minds, that is then reflected in our actions. that we would prove to the world, the perfect will of God.

and i realised, actually quite long ago, that i fall short terribly. the following statement would fully show how this is so.

nothing is sound rocks! so many seeders, downloaded it in less than an hour!!

thankyou.

the shadow proves the sunshine

We're,
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine

Too scared that I'll run aways
Holds fast till the brink of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine

we are one tonight

I don't want to lose it, coming down
With the whole world upside-down
I don't have a soul to trust in now
With the whole world upside-down

We are one, tonight!
And we're singing it out!
We are one, tonight!
And we're dreaming out loud!

my neck hurts like what, and i've been suffering in silence for 3 days already. it hurts so much throughout the day that i don't even have the mood to speak much. having to rely on pain-killers isn't a good thing. what with all that liver and kidney damage, and even hypertension. but that's the only way i can get to sleep.

the whole piece at the back of my kneck is like throbbing. as if some tight clamp is pressing in on my kneck, and it mighty hurts. if it persists any longer i really think i'll have to see the doc, damn. and its bringing on a massive headache at the same time.

prelims are over, actually quite some time ago. i feel really relieved. though i found myself feeling worried all over the results, whenever i think abt how the papers went, and fretting over losing a mark, and another mark there. and feeling frightened at the possibility of not getting into vJ. but thanks to mich, who said sth that made me feel at peace.

i mean it held truth in what she said. that even if i dun make it to where i want to go, God is in control. and that even if i don't achieve my own will, i'll have to realise that God has a better plan for me, that often doesn't coincide with the desires of my flesh.

i mean really, why worry and be anxious over sth that you have no control over? we just keep trying to find a solution to sth that we ourselves just don't have the ability to solve; and only because we ourselves make it to be a problem, when it never had to be one.

if we just look at life in that perspective, we are able to look at life positively; amidst the problems and challenges in life, that often overwhelm us and lose the clarity that God is the greater than all these set-backs put together and multiplied by a trillion.

yes, for philippians says that we should be anxious over nothing, but in everything by prayer, supplication and thanksgiving, to lay our requests before God. And the result being that the Peace of God, which transcends our understanding, will guard our hears and minds through Jesus Christ.

okay, left with chinese on monday. hate you ppl who don't take bio, already dropped chinese, and have hols since yst to next tuesday. hate you, irritating.

okay, h o s o e k l a y is officially whore no.2. (whore no.1 was t a n g, i can't actually rmb why i gave her that title, come to think of it). she effectively screwed my bio paper 2 up. really, the entire paper was like outside the text. i shouldn't have wasted my bloody time studying until 2am the night before - the way victorians do (11th hour isn't exactly the most apt description).

i didn't even know our sexual repro. system produces mucus la. how the hell i supposed to know what the hell it does. how am i supposed to know why bacteria in the vagina stops yeast infection? how am i to know. or why elephantitis is caused by fat blockage of the lacteals? or how positive ions in de-odourant can kill bacteria? and they gave some super abstract shit illustrating water absorption and release, and didn't bloody label the figure.

the thing is not that there are stuff that are outside the text. its that EVERYTHING was outside the text.

downloaded finish eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. not bad a show. i love shows with interesting plots and impactful endings. like beautiful mind, butterfly effect. not like senseless shows like DOOM - like wth is doom. or like cinderalla story - wth is cinderalla story?!?

lol its 1030 and i've yet to do anything productive. the internet is just the ultimate time-sapping shit ever invented. u could just spend ur entire life browsing through the entire world wide web, till ur eyes become so intensely tired, that there is a permanent film of tears that wells up under the lids.

but this azrael guy is just hell of a hilarious guy, or at least his experiences in japan. dickdodge, kancho, gaijin shit, jap girls doing the most absurd stuff, and $*()@#-boy... wth, i'm teaching english in japan, if i ever were to forge a career in education. rofl.

anyway, chem was alright today. wong liang seng's paper was really out to trick us bunch of innocent(hmm..) 16 yos.. evilness, but i see through the eyes of all of it..whahhahah

a math was totally screwed though. totally. for the paper 2, it was as though at the 1 hr mark, hell would break lose on me. i was at quesion 7 already, out of 11. and i was panicking, for some screwed up reason. i had 1hr hello, and was more than halfway through the thing, and i was panicking, cos some shit in my head was telling me i didn't have enough time. that led to the resulting questions to be marred by errors and mis-calculations = time wastage, and i couldn't bloody finish the paper. like, wth. i was stunned totally, like wth, nooo, not the prelims.

i really hope i still would be able to get my A1. if not, i really hope physics would get a 1. or else, i'm effectively screwed out of my mind.

i should really start my bio like now. or lose hope of actually finishing my revision by tmr.

m s t a n g is a whore. bloody monkey ass whore. she got 4.1 class to do the monkey paper where half of today's prelim mcq questions came out from. and 4.1 class students breezed through the paper, while poor 4.4 class ppl toiled at the guai lan questions. the paper 2 questions also came out from that compilation of other school's papers... which mrs foo jia wen happily didn't want to get for us. other than that, it was a relatively attemptable paper.

crap, i really need to fight back this lethargy. noo, not in the middle of my prelims. i can't have any of it. why sec4, of all the different preiods, sec4. it came at the beginning of the year, and never really left. i need to pick it all up again.

i look at the way ppl ard me mug like hell, and i feel incredibly guilty because i do nothing abt it. its the weather i tell u, its making me rant like a whore. that's it, my diagnosis: IMS exacerbated by the weather, prelims and lethargy.

i need to do well, i need to. but something tells me i won't, i'll screw up. great, i'm running into depression.

hurry! the ANCHOR! noW! before i go any deeper..

shit, i'm turning into a neurotic psyched-out kid

PEOPLE! after the Os we shall all go work. work like no tomorrow.

we shall serve morning breakfast hotcakes with a mighty load of whipped butter and syrup at macs. go sit outside bedok MRT station with a bucket infront of us, and pretend to play the harmonica in the afternoon buzz. then go serve afternoon dim-sum at one of those high-tea eateries, and earn the tips from those ah-sohs with too much money to spare. afterwhich, we will go become chefs at pastamania for dinner. then, THEN we all go comfort delgo and drive their taxis until the next morning where we pit stop at macs again.

we shall all earn in nov. until we accumulate 1.5k. then THEN we go canada and ski. thankyouverymuch.

changed the look of the blog. of which if you hadn't yet realised, you ought to go dunk the orb-like thing sticking out of your bloody neck, which so happens, is also known as the head, into the toilet bowl. and once the water has cleared the spank out of your eyes, you may come back and realise the metamorphosis this site has undertaken.

seriously, if i dun get some skiing action soon, i'm going to wither and die. i'll feel so sorry for myself that i'll curl up and degenerate to nothingness.

a revelation ppl! ground-breaking discovery. platonic vibration inducing stuff!

i just realised that my toe - the odd looking thing that sticks out of your foot, if u haven't yet realised - is stronger than my thumb (the hand equivalent of the toe). so anyway this isn't established without due experimentation and what i would like to call 'try try won't die'.

so this is basically how the genius in me involuntarily brought me to this fascinating realisation. i was studying ss (this subject should really be banned for its propagandic quality, with all that the govt. was so far sighted that it did this and that for housing, education and healthcare). i was sitting on the table, for some weird reason, with my feet against the edge of the table. and halfway memorising how the venetian govt. prevents nepotism, i realised how my toe erects in a firm horizontal position. for some other reason, i tried pushing it down with my finger.

this led to a full-fledged war, between my toe and my finger (hands). and after countless battles, i have concluded through the toe emerging victorious almost every time, that the TOE is the undisputed champion!

i should be considered for the nobel prize. really.

embrace makes good music.

spell it out - Embrace

wave goodbye
cos i know i believe you
if you spell it out for me
spell it out so everyone can see
all that really matters now to me
is that i can set you free
my hands are tied and i can't find my feet

sucks to know that everyone's like 'yay! tmr no school, can sleep late. can play dota until 3am'. when i have prelims during the hols. e maths paper tmr. which equates to me not being able to sleep in. this sucks, really. the feeling is unbearable, you lose the drive to study. i'm not practising my math, because i just feel too sian to do that; tmr die.

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this song so rocks my shorts off.

Jump Around - planet shakers

SUMBODY get ur praise ON!

there is one thing that i know for sure
how much i love u, yet u love me more
u paid my debt a price i could not pay
so i will praise u each and every day

i'm not gonna hold back
i think its time to just get up and jump around now~

everybody jump around in the house of GOD
HEY HEY JUMP AROUND
everybody jump around in the house of GOD EVERYBODY

come on praise him
JUMP JUMP
i said praise him
JUMP JUMP
praise him
JUMP JUMP

when i say JESUS u say PRAISE him
JESUS, PRAISE HIM
JESUS, PRAISE HIM

there is one thing that i can't ignore
the power of praising u in one accord
our praise goes up, the walls come down
listen up people i can hear their sound

i'm not gonna hold back
i think its time to just get up and jump around now~

for the heck of it, or rather because the pop-up keeps (well) popping up whenever i visit m-w, it took the iq test. damn dumb, i didn't seem to end la, so many questions. 135. oh did u know that the french has to lowest iq average in euro, sad.

gay shit bio pract. gave us a cricket. if they ever gave a nymp or roach, i think i'll die. i won't be able to draw the damned thing, and forfeit the 8 marks. the yeast also stank like what. got it all over my hands and table. and the test-tube was foaming so much, it was all over the outside of the pyrex. other than that, which is actually the majority of the pract., it was rather fun la. except for some stupid reason, i suddenly forgot what the hell 'dorsal' meant. i was thinking.. hmm dorsal fin.. erm no link to the cricket. but i was quite sure it was the thoraxic portion, so my drawing was kinda like the one above. its the mouse i tell u, my actual one is much better.