i hate being discounted. don't you hate it when people discount you. obviously, who wouldn't.

sentosa was fun. tan is good too. swam since a very long time, technique's kinda lost, making swimming a tiring ordeal. maybe it was bcos of the current.

missions trip in a week or so. but i'm quite confident that everything's coming up fine. or rather its because i don't see the progress of everything else out of my involvement scope.

blogging is tiring. and its pointless. its no wonder that people stop blogging after a period of time. a phase, i suppose.

this post is particularly random. i probably forgot how to blog properly, and so ya.

the prospects of after tmr makes me feel happy. its the last tough nut to swallow. geog and physics together. the 2 out there just to kill me. especially physics since i've not touched it since don't know when. and geog which i have yet to finish revising a single time through. i have still the whole thick chapter on environmental degradation that i've yet to cover. shall get abit of physics into my head in between tmr's break after geog. for now, i've got to get all these factors into my head, and ace tmr's geog paper. or i can forgo any hopes i have on making it to rj or vj for that matter.

i really planned to start earlier. but oc3ep6 and smallville5ep6 got the better of things, and i had to watch those. now that i'm done with them, i can begin my study! cheer for me!

today was okay. the papers were relatively simple. SS is scary, seeing how close i was to not spotting the right topics. looks like statistics always works out for the worst case scenerio. dennis damn suay, studied everything from the 2 books except 3 topics. and those 3 very topics, came out. siah suay lah, he defied probability like mad. hopefully, my answers would turn out to be satisfactory. sometimes you wonder whether your answers when looked upon by the cambridge markers, would actually be correct or whatever. its scary if you think about it. but ya, no point worrying over things i can't control.

ohh. the Os is weird. i find myself not having the right frame of mind to approach the examinations. this is bad, the right frame of mind is really important, sets the mood for you to go all out to OWN the paper. to pwn it. that confidence is vital. but i find that lacking now. i hardly have the mood to study, or even sit for the paper. the O's are here, but i'm still dota'ing, still whiling my time away, surfing the net for random stuff. i really don't know, i feel i lack the focus. not thinking too much about the exams may be a good thing, but i'm totally not considering it, and living out life as if there is not major major super major exam the next day.

i'm not taking the exams seriously enough. people think i'm stressed because i crease my brows a little, keep extremely silent and look downwards during dinners. its a farce i tell you, its to make sure people like my parents, think i'm studying really really hard till my brains are fried.

what's wrong with me. i need inspiration for my essay on wednesday. i'm considering a few key topics anyhow. go parkway tmr to study maybe, which effectively means go there and look at people, or go classic to pool. this so sounds like the O levels ya.

i should be hung. till i bleed to death. really, they should.

i feel disappointed with myself. not pissed, just disappointed with myself.

it all started with a an outing under the all so perfect facade of 'study' at changi airport. ya, so i went hoping i could be of assisstance, help my sch mates here and there. reached bk, and landed up beoh'ing people. ya then there was this retarded woman, who looked really retarded and acted in like fashion. and was like grinning really obscenely and blowing kisses to some angmoh kid a distance from her table, the angmoh mum was damn traumatised and worried.

ya then kloong dared ben for free pool to go sit next to that retarded woman, make eye contact and smile in a gay manner to her. the whole ordeal seriously, all 4 of us laugh until die. my sides hurt like shit, i tell you. the whole bk was like looking. ben was later illustrating how freaky it was cos when he made eye contact and smiled, the woman stuck out her tumb and pointed to her fore head and gave a totally obscene grin. we laugh until die again.

then we left for pool. you see till now, we have still yet to do any 'study' whatsoever. we pooled at parkway till 6.30pm. ben punched with some stranger, but lost 3-5, 9 bucks. had dinner, went over to ben's house in hope to embark on some form of 'study'. within 30 minutes of studying intertwined with random talk, they gave up and started browsing through friendster profiles for people to look at -_-. time consuming stuff i tell you.

oh and then dennis decided to play around with fabian. they spent over an hour or so, confessing dennis' gay tendencies and all that shit. shit funny, cos they managed to get the originally skeptical fabian to be convinced that dennis fancied him. like wth, dennis gay, who in the right mind will believe. oh wait, fabian ain't in the right mind.

lol, then by doing all these, they managed to dig deeper into the intricacies of fabian's gay tendencies. that he was straight in p6, and VS actually screwed up his sexual orientation, really badly, to the point of having a turn on for guys.

at like 12+, fabian sms'ed dennis. that went along the lines of, ' i really appreciate you sharing this with me. thanks. nites.' ROFL.

then went down to watch soccer at 2+, and slept. wth.

to think it began on mIRC with. 'eh tmr wanna go where study?' i am so not falling for that again, i won't have to anyway, since after O's which is so damn near, there would be no need to study anymore. instead, i'll be turning on the cd-player in my room, and HOP around, isn't that just so perfectly NORMAL.