today was okay. the papers were relatively simple. SS is scary, seeing how close i was to not spotting the right topics. looks like statistics always works out for the worst case scenerio. dennis damn suay, studied everything from the 2 books except 3 topics. and those 3 very topics, came out. siah suay lah, he defied probability like mad. hopefully, my answers would turn out to be satisfactory. sometimes you wonder whether your answers when looked upon by the cambridge markers, would actually be correct or whatever. its scary if you think about it. but ya, no point worrying over things i can't control.

ohh. the Os is weird. i find myself not having the right frame of mind to approach the examinations. this is bad, the right frame of mind is really important, sets the mood for you to go all out to OWN the paper. to pwn it. that confidence is vital. but i find that lacking now. i hardly have the mood to study, or even sit for the paper. the O's are here, but i'm still dota'ing, still whiling my time away, surfing the net for random stuff. i really don't know, i feel i lack the focus. not thinking too much about the exams may be a good thing, but i'm totally not considering it, and living out life as if there is not major major super major exam the next day.

i'm not taking the exams seriously enough. people think i'm stressed because i crease my brows a little, keep extremely silent and look downwards during dinners. its a farce i tell you, its to make sure people like my parents, think i'm studying really really hard till my brains are fried.

what's wrong with me. i need inspiration for my essay on wednesday. i'm considering a few key topics anyhow. go parkway tmr to study maybe, which effectively means go there and look at people, or go classic to pool. this so sounds like the O levels ya.